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Friday, July 31, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Hot hot hot....
The weather around Seattle has been unbearable the last few days. I cannot believe it has become so swelteringly hot! I'm dreading tomorrow, it's supposed to get up into the hundreds. Which wouldn't be so bad, if it weren't for the fact that it's not just hot, it's humid. Yuck.
In other news, last May I gave myself a goal of reading 50 books in one year, which I accomplished. It was really cool to know that I could read so much in such a short time. By the end I had actually read 57 books, which averages a little more than a book a week. So just after I finished my 57th book a friend of mine came up to me and requested we have a read off to see who could read the most books in a year. Well, I was like, alright, sure, why not.... Well, frankly I couldn't really care about reading as fast as I can anymore. After having read 50 books I was pretty darn content with myself, and I just can't seem to force myself to read more books. I mean I've read some good ones since we started, like Dracula by Bram Stoker, amazing book by the way. But I just have gotten so apathetic about books. Well, most books. To be honest, I've been throwing around the idea of reading the Bible all the way through, and tried to start in the New Testament, because I've heard that's the easiest way to accomplish it, but I found it really hard to get through Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John, seeing as they all explain most of the same events. So I'm going about it a different way. I'm going to read back and forth. For ever few Old Testament books I'm going to read one New Testament book. I feel like this way I'm getting a little of both and I'm not overwhelming myself with the Gospels.
So far the Bible reading is going really well. I've attempted this same thing before and after one night of staying up late and reading I've become apathetic. But for the last few days I've been put putting my way through Genesis and I'm really enjoying it. I feel like I'm reading with a purpose.
I still don't know what to do about Lindsay, but the subject, after having spilled my guts the other night, seems to be free from my mind. I don't know if the Lord just needs me to relax and not worry, but I've been pretty content about it. For a while Lindsay and I were still Myspace friends, she deleted me from Facebook immediately, but just recently she deleted me on Myspace too. I'm not really worried about this, more happy that I'm not opening my Myspace and wondering what she's posted as a status update. I don't like dwelling, and her deleting me has actually helped rather than hindered.
Things with Aaron have been good. I was a little bummed to learn that he had the night off and was planning on swimming with friends of his, instead of hanging out with me. But I realized how ridiculous that was and got over it pretty quick. I almost wanted him to invite me, but at the same time I was thinking to myself that there were going to be tons of people swimming and I just didn't want to deal with it. Ha. He did say we'd see each other tomorrow when he gets off work. The way he said it had an air of "duh" mixed in with it. Ha. It surprised me a little, but I also found it rather funny.
Work was good today, I was really enjoying the A/C and I feel like I'm going to miss it tomorrow. It's supposed to get up into the 100's and I have nothing to keep me cool, but a fan that's blowing warm air. I suppose the Lord will keep me cool though, yes Lord?!
Just gonna close tonight with a prayer that tomorrow will not be as miserable as I'm expecting it to be, and that the Lord will keep my Grandma, my dog, and I healthy even through the heat. Also I'm gonna thank the Lord that this Blogger auto saves, because I would have just lost this entire blog. (Seems lame, but I really would not have wanted to write it all over again!)
Night all!
In other news, last May I gave myself a goal of reading 50 books in one year, which I accomplished. It was really cool to know that I could read so much in such a short time. By the end I had actually read 57 books, which averages a little more than a book a week. So just after I finished my 57th book a friend of mine came up to me and requested we have a read off to see who could read the most books in a year. Well, I was like, alright, sure, why not.... Well, frankly I couldn't really care about reading as fast as I can anymore. After having read 50 books I was pretty darn content with myself, and I just can't seem to force myself to read more books. I mean I've read some good ones since we started, like Dracula by Bram Stoker, amazing book by the way. But I just have gotten so apathetic about books. Well, most books. To be honest, I've been throwing around the idea of reading the Bible all the way through, and tried to start in the New Testament, because I've heard that's the easiest way to accomplish it, but I found it really hard to get through Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John, seeing as they all explain most of the same events. So I'm going about it a different way. I'm going to read back and forth. For ever few Old Testament books I'm going to read one New Testament book. I feel like this way I'm getting a little of both and I'm not overwhelming myself with the Gospels.
So far the Bible reading is going really well. I've attempted this same thing before and after one night of staying up late and reading I've become apathetic. But for the last few days I've been put putting my way through Genesis and I'm really enjoying it. I feel like I'm reading with a purpose.
I still don't know what to do about Lindsay, but the subject, after having spilled my guts the other night, seems to be free from my mind. I don't know if the Lord just needs me to relax and not worry, but I've been pretty content about it. For a while Lindsay and I were still Myspace friends, she deleted me from Facebook immediately, but just recently she deleted me on Myspace too. I'm not really worried about this, more happy that I'm not opening my Myspace and wondering what she's posted as a status update. I don't like dwelling, and her deleting me has actually helped rather than hindered.
Things with Aaron have been good. I was a little bummed to learn that he had the night off and was planning on swimming with friends of his, instead of hanging out with me. But I realized how ridiculous that was and got over it pretty quick. I almost wanted him to invite me, but at the same time I was thinking to myself that there were going to be tons of people swimming and I just didn't want to deal with it. Ha. He did say we'd see each other tomorrow when he gets off work. The way he said it had an air of "duh" mixed in with it. Ha. It surprised me a little, but I also found it rather funny.
Work was good today, I was really enjoying the A/C and I feel like I'm going to miss it tomorrow. It's supposed to get up into the 100's and I have nothing to keep me cool, but a fan that's blowing warm air. I suppose the Lord will keep me cool though, yes Lord?!
Just gonna close tonight with a prayer that tomorrow will not be as miserable as I'm expecting it to be, and that the Lord will keep my Grandma, my dog, and I healthy even through the heat. Also I'm gonna thank the Lord that this Blogger auto saves, because I would have just lost this entire blog. (Seems lame, but I really would not have wanted to write it all over again!)
Night all!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
So, I thoroughly failed at blogging every day, but then, I have a really hard time starting habits and an even harder time breaking them. However, after having gone back and read my old blogs I've been inspired to write them again. And though before I've been avoiding names, I think it's alright to use them now because those people don't read these blogs. And even if they did, I hope that they will understand where I am coming from and that though I felt that way then, I may not feel the same now. (Though, I still do feel similarly about one.)
Let me explain. The friend that I have had so much trouble with, and have discussed most often in these blogs has been Lindsay. (The other is Leah, however, our friendship has begun to blossom, and I praise God for that.) Lindsay and I became friends in the 2nd grade, and though there were years that our friendship wavered, we became really close near the end of high school. Looking back I see that the hardest hurdle our friendship has to overcome is the way we have grown up. I have felt more settled and content in being happy with my family and my friends, and never felt the need to give in to too many worldly affairs or needs, but Lindsay has really begun to live the "21 and over" lifestyle.
Though sometimes I feel like Lindsay really wants to change, it never seems like she succeeds. And I don't know now if that is in part because of me. Not that I am so important as to be able to change the world, only through God's grace can we achieve change, but I feel like I have been so weak. By that I mean that when she has said or done things that I know she should not say or do, I am too afraid to speak up and tell her the truth. That's not a real friend. But my reasons for do so are because I knew that if I told her how I feel she would just be angry and resentful. I never wanted to cause friction, and that seriously damaged my attempts at help.
Fairly recently Lindsay and I have stopped speaking to one another. The reason for that lies in a dinner we had together just a while back. It must have been a few months ago that she called me and asked me to come have dinner with her. I was delighted, I hadn't seen her in a while and I wanted to see how she was getting along. Now, I think it's important to mention here that Leah had been eager to get the chance to sit down and have a serious talk with Lindsay. They had been having quite a few troubles and she wanted to try and resolve some of the differences between them. So far, Lindsay had been avoiding this conversation and was feeling a bit overwhelmed by Leah. They had made the decision to speak to one another about a week before Lindsay and I went out to dinner. So when I got a text message from Leah asking if I had seen Lindsay lately, I responded that I was having dinner with her right then. Well, apparently this was the exact wrong thing to say because just a few seconds after I sent that text message Lindsay advised me that she was supposed to be with Leah having the all important discussion at that very moment, but that she just didn't want to deal with Leah "acting like [her] mom." So, of course I received a text message back from Leah, very upset that Lindsay would disregard something she felt was so important. Now, normally this would just make me feel little uneasy and guilty, because, again, I don't like to cause friction with Lindsay, however in this particular instance it just upset me. Leah was trying so hard to help Lindsay and to be there for her as a true friend should, and Lindsay so easily shrugged it off. As you may expect, Leah sent Lindsay a text message explaining that she was very upset she would do such a thing and Lindsay got a bit upset with me. Well that made things difficult, but I decided this time to stand up for once. I didn't say anything specific to why Leah was upset, but as I was receiving text messages from Leah stating that I was allowed to disclose any information about why she was upset with Lindsay, the fore mentioned asked me if I was still receiving texts from her. I answered "Yes, and she's really pissed." Lindsay remained quiet after that and didn't say much else. However I couldn't let myself waste this opportunity to state my mind, just because she would not start the fire. So I also said "Well, I don't really blame her." Though this didn't invoke a response from her, I could tell she was angry and the rest of the dinner as well as the car ride home was tense and silent. So, to this day we still have not spoken.
The only regret I now have from that day is simply that I did not say more. I had begun to crack the wall I had so readily put up in the past, but I wasn't quite ready to completely watch it fall. I would have liked to have told her my reasons for being upset with her, and that it wasn't so much that I was taking Leah's side, because like I've stated before, I'm more of a mitigator than a fighter, but that I felt if she treated one friend so poorly who was to say she wasn't treating me exactly the same. I knew for a fact at this point that she would talk about me in a similar way behind my back the way she talked about Leah. And I should have known that always, because she has spoken poorly to me of every friend she's ever had. I don't know why this particular situation burst my tolerance, but it did. I couldn't handle being an object of convenience to her anymore. I have felt, as you know, that way for sometime, but this somehow became the last straw.
So, to this very day there has been silence between us, and though I do think of her often and of how I should correctly handle her returning to try and regain a friendship, I am not sure I should expect to hear from her. I need to spend some time in prayer, because I know the Lord says to "turn the other cheek", but at the same time he tells us to cut off the dead branches preventing us from bearing our spiritual fruits. I have intentionally severed only one friendship before, and though that was the right choice for me at the time, I'm still not sure how God wants me to handle this friendship.
On a happier note, as I mentioned before, Leah and I have become a lot closer in the past couple of months. She recently moved not a 15 minute walk from my house, and I have been exceedingly blessed by her. She is a truly amazing girl. Though we don't always agree, I have a feeling she will be a good influence on my spiritual growth. Of which a hunger and desire has regained a hold on my life.
As for Aaron and I, things have never been better. I love him more than I ever thought possible, and after a very serious and painful discussion a few nights ago, I feel that our relationship is only going to get sweeter. The Lord has heard our prayers and is beginning to bless our relationship in a way we have been preventing for it's entirety.
Just a quick prayer tonight that the Lord would show me which path to take with Lindsay. And a continued blessing on both my friendship with Leah and my relationship with Aaron. As well, a quick prayer for Melanie, a friend of Esten's that needs a little push and a softened heart from her parents. Lord, give Melanie the strength and courage necessary to confront her parents and give them a softening heart and open mind to understand that she needs to be able to make decisions for herself. Lord that you would find any means necessary for Melanie to become closer to you. In Your name. Amen
Goodnight, all.
Let me explain. The friend that I have had so much trouble with, and have discussed most often in these blogs has been Lindsay. (The other is Leah, however, our friendship has begun to blossom, and I praise God for that.) Lindsay and I became friends in the 2nd grade, and though there were years that our friendship wavered, we became really close near the end of high school. Looking back I see that the hardest hurdle our friendship has to overcome is the way we have grown up. I have felt more settled and content in being happy with my family and my friends, and never felt the need to give in to too many worldly affairs or needs, but Lindsay has really begun to live the "21 and over" lifestyle.
Though sometimes I feel like Lindsay really wants to change, it never seems like she succeeds. And I don't know now if that is in part because of me. Not that I am so important as to be able to change the world, only through God's grace can we achieve change, but I feel like I have been so weak. By that I mean that when she has said or done things that I know she should not say or do, I am too afraid to speak up and tell her the truth. That's not a real friend. But my reasons for do so are because I knew that if I told her how I feel she would just be angry and resentful. I never wanted to cause friction, and that seriously damaged my attempts at help.
Fairly recently Lindsay and I have stopped speaking to one another. The reason for that lies in a dinner we had together just a while back. It must have been a few months ago that she called me and asked me to come have dinner with her. I was delighted, I hadn't seen her in a while and I wanted to see how she was getting along. Now, I think it's important to mention here that Leah had been eager to get the chance to sit down and have a serious talk with Lindsay. They had been having quite a few troubles and she wanted to try and resolve some of the differences between them. So far, Lindsay had been avoiding this conversation and was feeling a bit overwhelmed by Leah. They had made the decision to speak to one another about a week before Lindsay and I went out to dinner. So when I got a text message from Leah asking if I had seen Lindsay lately, I responded that I was having dinner with her right then. Well, apparently this was the exact wrong thing to say because just a few seconds after I sent that text message Lindsay advised me that she was supposed to be with Leah having the all important discussion at that very moment, but that she just didn't want to deal with Leah "acting like [her] mom." So, of course I received a text message back from Leah, very upset that Lindsay would disregard something she felt was so important. Now, normally this would just make me feel little uneasy and guilty, because, again, I don't like to cause friction with Lindsay, however in this particular instance it just upset me. Leah was trying so hard to help Lindsay and to be there for her as a true friend should, and Lindsay so easily shrugged it off. As you may expect, Leah sent Lindsay a text message explaining that she was very upset she would do such a thing and Lindsay got a bit upset with me. Well that made things difficult, but I decided this time to stand up for once. I didn't say anything specific to why Leah was upset, but as I was receiving text messages from Leah stating that I was allowed to disclose any information about why she was upset with Lindsay, the fore mentioned asked me if I was still receiving texts from her. I answered "Yes, and she's really pissed." Lindsay remained quiet after that and didn't say much else. However I couldn't let myself waste this opportunity to state my mind, just because she would not start the fire. So I also said "Well, I don't really blame her." Though this didn't invoke a response from her, I could tell she was angry and the rest of the dinner as well as the car ride home was tense and silent. So, to this day we still have not spoken.
The only regret I now have from that day is simply that I did not say more. I had begun to crack the wall I had so readily put up in the past, but I wasn't quite ready to completely watch it fall. I would have liked to have told her my reasons for being upset with her, and that it wasn't so much that I was taking Leah's side, because like I've stated before, I'm more of a mitigator than a fighter, but that I felt if she treated one friend so poorly who was to say she wasn't treating me exactly the same. I knew for a fact at this point that she would talk about me in a similar way behind my back the way she talked about Leah. And I should have known that always, because she has spoken poorly to me of every friend she's ever had. I don't know why this particular situation burst my tolerance, but it did. I couldn't handle being an object of convenience to her anymore. I have felt, as you know, that way for sometime, but this somehow became the last straw.
So, to this very day there has been silence between us, and though I do think of her often and of how I should correctly handle her returning to try and regain a friendship, I am not sure I should expect to hear from her. I need to spend some time in prayer, because I know the Lord says to "turn the other cheek", but at the same time he tells us to cut off the dead branches preventing us from bearing our spiritual fruits. I have intentionally severed only one friendship before, and though that was the right choice for me at the time, I'm still not sure how God wants me to handle this friendship.
On a happier note, as I mentioned before, Leah and I have become a lot closer in the past couple of months. She recently moved not a 15 minute walk from my house, and I have been exceedingly blessed by her. She is a truly amazing girl. Though we don't always agree, I have a feeling she will be a good influence on my spiritual growth. Of which a hunger and desire has regained a hold on my life.
As for Aaron and I, things have never been better. I love him more than I ever thought possible, and after a very serious and painful discussion a few nights ago, I feel that our relationship is only going to get sweeter. The Lord has heard our prayers and is beginning to bless our relationship in a way we have been preventing for it's entirety.
Just a quick prayer tonight that the Lord would show me which path to take with Lindsay. And a continued blessing on both my friendship with Leah and my relationship with Aaron. As well, a quick prayer for Melanie, a friend of Esten's that needs a little push and a softened heart from her parents. Lord, give Melanie the strength and courage necessary to confront her parents and give them a softening heart and open mind to understand that she needs to be able to make decisions for herself. Lord that you would find any means necessary for Melanie to become closer to you. In Your name. Amen
Goodnight, all.
Saturday, May 09, 2009
May 9th
I have a ton of backed up blogs that I need to post. They're all saved currently on my computer in a word document because my internet didn't want to load. Ugh, what else is new right? I'll load them later tonight, when I get the chance. :)
Today was a pretty chill day. Work wasn't nearly as crazy slow as yesterday, but it was still definitely a weekend vibe. As much as I hate working saturdays, its a bitter sweet business. Getting up at 4am on a saturday isn't fun unless its christmas, so that sucks, but having our easy going supervisors being the only ones around is a joy. Its all smiles on most saturdays. Course the bus I have to take sucks, its always full and smells bad, not to mention it takes twice as long as the bus I take during the week. But all things aside, I don't mind having a weekday off either. We're doing a shift change next month, and I put in for a mon-fri shift, but chances are I won't get it. I'm definitely crossing my fingers though. All I can do is pray about it and see what happens, right?!
Aaron left for california yesterday, and I'm kinda bummed about that, partly because I can't go with him.:P
Its good though, if any thing I need to get used to not seeing him. Once he goes on tour I'm gonna be without him for months at a time, but seperation makes the heart grow fonder. Right?! Right.
Today was a pretty chill day. Work wasn't nearly as crazy slow as yesterday, but it was still definitely a weekend vibe. As much as I hate working saturdays, its a bitter sweet business. Getting up at 4am on a saturday isn't fun unless its christmas, so that sucks, but having our easy going supervisors being the only ones around is a joy. Its all smiles on most saturdays. Course the bus I have to take sucks, its always full and smells bad, not to mention it takes twice as long as the bus I take during the week. But all things aside, I don't mind having a weekday off either. We're doing a shift change next month, and I put in for a mon-fri shift, but chances are I won't get it. I'm definitely crossing my fingers though. All I can do is pray about it and see what happens, right?!
Aaron left for california yesterday, and I'm kinda bummed about that, partly because I can't go with him.:P
Its good though, if any thing I need to get used to not seeing him. Once he goes on tour I'm gonna be without him for months at a time, but seperation makes the heart grow fonder. Right?! Right.
Monday, May 04, 2009
May 4th
Today was a really strange day. Not that anything abnormal happened, but more that it went really quickly, but not as quickly as I would have liked.
I don't know what to do about my friend, and I'm feeling really apathetic again. I tried to talk to her yesterday, like I said I was going to, but the truth is she was so preoccupied by the other things she needed to get done. I'm pretty sure when she said she wanted to talk to me about the problems she's been having with my other friend, what she really wanted was for me to listen and agree. Unfortunately I wasn't ready to do that for her. I explained to her how our friend feels and why she said the things she did, and why she does the things she does, but she didn't want to hear it.
I'm too apathetic, and unnecessarily upset to finish this. Just know that I try, and even though I try it doesn't always work out. fjiew;ueiple
This blog sucks!
I don't know what to do about my friend, and I'm feeling really apathetic again. I tried to talk to her yesterday, like I said I was going to, but the truth is she was so preoccupied by the other things she needed to get done. I'm pretty sure when she said she wanted to talk to me about the problems she's been having with my other friend, what she really wanted was for me to listen and agree. Unfortunately I wasn't ready to do that for her. I explained to her how our friend feels and why she said the things she did, and why she does the things she does, but she didn't want to hear it.
I'm too apathetic, and unnecessarily upset to finish this. Just know that I try, and even though I try it doesn't always work out. fjiew;ueiple
This blog sucks!
Sunday, May 03, 2009
May 3rd
I've realized a lot about myself today. And it reflects on the entry I posted on the 1st of May.
I think I've been too harsh on my friends. I need to check what frustrations I let out before I have prayed about it. I love my friends, and even if I feel that they may not quite return the amount of care I have for them, it is important for me to love them anyway. I've had the opportunity to speak with one of those friends today, and I'm hoping the things I have said to her make her understand me better. We've got some pretty similar views and some very different views, but none the less I don't feel I have to filter my thoughts with her. I can be honest with her, and that's a good feeling.
I have not yet had the chance to talk to the other, I'm actually currently waiting for her to get to my house so I can sit down and talk with her. I'm just praying that the Lord will give me the words to explain to her how I feel. I'm truly concerned about her. And I've strongly felt today that my apathy is the wrong path. I need to care about her, I need to endure pain, and hardship from her and with her, because that's what Christ did for me. I want to show her God's love, and I can't do that if I am letting her walk into situations that I know are going to hurt her. I'll update about that conversation tomorrow. Or post later.
Aaron and I went to Mars Hill again this morning. I am so excited about this place. I have wanted for so long to have a church where I can feel God's presence every Sunday. And it's not at all that I feel my normal church is unGodly, or that they could not inspire me to feel God's presence, it's just that I have become hardened and for some reason Pastor Mark is busting through that wall. To be true, Robin Hadfield is an amazing guy, and he loves the Lord, and is there to do what God has called him to do, but I don't think he's quite touching my core, and I am hungry. Mars Hill is satisfying that hunger, and in fact, making me strive more for the relationship with Christ that I have had in the past and have been so in need of as of late.
I would just ask that you pray that I have the strength to speak honestly and openly with my friend. And pray that my relationship with Christ will only continue to grow, and that my thirst will be quenched, my hunger satisfied. Also pray that I can continue to practice self control, and master my pride. Thank you.
I think I've been too harsh on my friends. I need to check what frustrations I let out before I have prayed about it. I love my friends, and even if I feel that they may not quite return the amount of care I have for them, it is important for me to love them anyway. I've had the opportunity to speak with one of those friends today, and I'm hoping the things I have said to her make her understand me better. We've got some pretty similar views and some very different views, but none the less I don't feel I have to filter my thoughts with her. I can be honest with her, and that's a good feeling.
I have not yet had the chance to talk to the other, I'm actually currently waiting for her to get to my house so I can sit down and talk with her. I'm just praying that the Lord will give me the words to explain to her how I feel. I'm truly concerned about her. And I've strongly felt today that my apathy is the wrong path. I need to care about her, I need to endure pain, and hardship from her and with her, because that's what Christ did for me. I want to show her God's love, and I can't do that if I am letting her walk into situations that I know are going to hurt her. I'll update about that conversation tomorrow. Or post later.
Aaron and I went to Mars Hill again this morning. I am so excited about this place. I have wanted for so long to have a church where I can feel God's presence every Sunday. And it's not at all that I feel my normal church is unGodly, or that they could not inspire me to feel God's presence, it's just that I have become hardened and for some reason Pastor Mark is busting through that wall. To be true, Robin Hadfield is an amazing guy, and he loves the Lord, and is there to do what God has called him to do, but I don't think he's quite touching my core, and I am hungry. Mars Hill is satisfying that hunger, and in fact, making me strive more for the relationship with Christ that I have had in the past and have been so in need of as of late.
I would just ask that you pray that I have the strength to speak honestly and openly with my friend. And pray that my relationship with Christ will only continue to grow, and that my thirst will be quenched, my hunger satisfied. Also pray that I can continue to practice self control, and master my pride. Thank you.
Saturday, May 02, 2009
May 2nd
I'm like 30 pages from finishing Emma and my grandma just stole the book from me!!! I had to sacrafice it so I could watch Harry Potter! Where do my alliances truly lie? I'm a bit ashamed, I must.admit!
So now I'm sitting here watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, and enjoying it most thoroughly, but also wondering what's going to happen between Emma and Mr. Knightly. And what about Hariett, when the heck is she going to marry Mr. Martin, because, frankly, I've seen Clueless, I know how this story goes. And also suddenly thinking of the significance of the name "Knightly", hm.
On my way home from work today I managed to get half way to my house when it started pouring down rain! Now normally, like any other person, I would have pulled out my umbrella, but for some reason, it was so humid and it smelled so good, that I couldn't bring myself to block out the rain. It was probably one of the best walks I've had in a long time.
Oh and with just a few unsuspected words, I've come to realize he really loves me. And that makes my life!
So now I'm sitting here watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, and enjoying it most thoroughly, but also wondering what's going to happen between Emma and Mr. Knightly. And what about Hariett, when the heck is she going to marry Mr. Martin, because, frankly, I've seen Clueless, I know how this story goes. And also suddenly thinking of the significance of the name "Knightly", hm.
On my way home from work today I managed to get half way to my house when it started pouring down rain! Now normally, like any other person, I would have pulled out my umbrella, but for some reason, it was so humid and it smelled so good, that I couldn't bring myself to block out the rain. It was probably one of the best walks I've had in a long time.
Oh and with just a few unsuspected words, I've come to realize he really loves me. And that makes my life!
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